Darcy Fairchild

My Past...

2003-02-07T01:31:47Z

I do not appreciate the comments recently posted on this livejournal. Not only were they slanderous, but they were undeserved and I will not stoop down to that low of a level just to comment on it. However, I do have a few things that need to be said:

Thank you, Jenni. You are a true friend to me, something that I have very few of. I appreciate you defending me while my computer was in peices, preventing me to be here myself.

The truth of the matter is the whole time I've been the one trying to stop the fighting. Truthfully, from my heart, I've tried to get "Bruno", whom we all know now is AJ, to stop playing, to stop the namecalling, to stop it all. I've behaved. But I see Guilt by Assosiation applies not only to criminal act but to petty namecalling. Since I'm so "pathetic", I give up. My friends know my email. They can mail me. But this, this LiveJournal, it's all overwith. I'm done.

That's all I have to say.

Forever and Always,
Darcy Fairchild

A new carol for your enjoyment

2002-12-20T20:42:07Z

Angels we have heard get high

Smoking doobies in the sky

Jesus says pot makes you strong

Thats great now hand me the bong

Sickness will surely take the mind where minds don't usually go!

2002-12-11T19:50:07Z

AH! We're off school again! (which is a good thing, except for the ice. It is making trees fall and this one outside of our window is creeping curiously closer to my house!) I finished typing the story and I've filled out the copyright papers. Did you all know that it's thirty bucks just to get it copyrighted? JEEZIE Petes! Anyway, that's all done, except now I don't know what to write. I've known these characters for forever and now I don't have anything to write about! Errg. I've gotta think something up before I kill someone. But I do love being home. ^_^ Well, except there was an important test I was schedualed to take today and I didn't get to do it! -_- Everytime I go to take this test something happens. Last time, no ID, this time, ICE! AHH! Oh well. Signing off!

Darcy

BTW

2002-12-09T03:25:09Z

Storytemptress is updated.

The Weight of Newly Grown Fangs.......

2002-12-09T03:09:35Z

Just read the fourth novel in the Vampire Diaries in less than two hours. Wasn't as good, I think, as the third and the second, but it was still good. It left me feeling a little ripped off because I read the description on the back and got something TOTALLY different from it than when I read the book. You know? Like it was supposed to be something that it wasn't? Not like it was a horrible book, although I could've liked another chapter or two about Elena and the end. I like reading about things like that. (Won't spoil it). So thats three books in that quartet in nine hours? (Timed it) I do reccomend them for you all. They are good. But I started on the second, I haven't read any of the others yet, which it how I accidentally started The Dark Is Rising Sequence. (On the second)

You guys can't, but I've been looking at some of my other dark and demonic posts from the past (i.e. "A taste of salt and the feeling of teeth at your throat"). Yeah, because of those books, not to mention the one I'm trying with, I've been feeling dark and evil lately. Just like I felt last year, which I haven't felt since last year. Someone could take this wrong -The Diary of Psycho Killer- but it's not that. Just someone who wants to know...

Is there Anyone Out there who feels like this too?

Gotta love me

2002-12-06T04:19:13Z

Friend likes guy. Guy burned me in past. Guy is dick. Warned friend. Friend is tracted to dicks. Warned friend. I was warned about current boyfriend, didn't listened, burned repeatedly before being asked out.

Okay, so I can't hate her. I was warned about Bruno many times, and many times he did hurt me, but now it's awesome because we are in a totally loving relationship going on for the past ten months. But I know the guy that this chick has a thing for. He is such a dickhead, such a complete asshole. I really don't want to see her hurt. I know she can take care of herself, but sometimes she's ditsy. I feel horrible about it.
I just don't think it's a good idea. She just got burned by someone else a little bit back, and the guy she's lookin at now is exactly like him. I don't know.

Let it snow....

2002-12-06T01:37:47Z

No school tomorrow either. We had a party about that. Been watching the weather channel all of today. Says where Jen is is out of power and such due to lots of weather-related stuff. I'm worried because I don't want her to FREEZE to death or anything. So, I hope Jen is doing all right.

Let it snow....

2002-12-06T01:31:05Z

One of the best books I've read in a long time.....

2002-12-05T19:47:04Z

My mom had to go to the library yesterday to enlarge a pattern, so being the considerate person that I am, I went along to keep her company. Also, I really didn't want to stay in the same house as my Dad. Anyway, I was looking at the books for sale rack and found The Vampire Diaries II: The Struggle. I wanted something to read, so I got it. Well I started reading as soon as I got home. I couldn't put it DOWN!!!!! So I'm on Barnes and Noble right now trying to order the last two in the series (now that I've read the second I'm not truly interested in the first). EVERYONE READ THESE BOOKS! They are by an author named L.J. Smith. They're wonderful!

And one more bit of interesting news- I've written an entire book, beginning to end. At the moment, I'm revising it, and them some of my friends would like to revise it (or at least read it!). So I'm really gonna do it- I'm really going to send it in to a publisher. It'll probably get rejected, but thats ok. I'll have at least tried, right? So I'm totally excited. It's called Dark Silver Blood at the moment, and it's about a tavern (and I had that idea before I read Anne Rice and Amelia Atwater-Rhodes) of vampires. So It's taken me three (four or five) years, but it's written. Pat me on the Back!!!

And for the Collinwood Kids, guess who makes a few appearances in it?

Quinten Silver, the original werewolf of my late RPG!!!!

One of the best books I've read in a long time.....

2002-12-05T19:46:35Z

And for the Collinwood Kids, guess who makes a few appearances in it?

Quinten Silver, the original werewolf of my late RPG!!!!

Ven ya got it, flownt it!

2002-11-30T21:48:05Z

Okay, so i didn't screw up that bad, but I did kind of screw up the play. ONly a few lines, I suppose, but I'm still beating myself over it. I mean- I knew the lines, you know? There was no reason for me to blank, and I'd been doing this forever and I don't think I've ever blanked before! Anyway, I blanked on a few of my lines... in a row.

La La La. Thanksgiving had it's ups and it's way way downs, but I managed through another holiday. God, I can't even begin to imagine what Christmas is going to be like. It did snow (if you call that pathetic melt in an hour blanket of crap snow) the day before the holiday, but it wasn't much. I hope it snows on Christmas. I've always wanted a white Christmas. ::dreamy sigh::

Tired. Tired, very tired. And only going to get more tired. -_- zzzzzzzz

Beware of the Queen of Spades, her black widow's curse will find you yet.

2002-11-20T22:26:59Z

Beware of the Queen of Spades,
Her black widow's curse will find you yet
Beware of a love that you will regret
A Love that means only your death. -STYX Last week of rehersals, which is good. Mountain calls it "critical rehersals" and I call it brutal rehersals. We're going to be there from five till ten tomorrow night, and they'll probably stay there later because if we're not done at ten I'm gone. I'm outta there. I got some compliments today from my schoolmates on my preformance, gotta tweak it. Mountain yelled at my adding lines in front of the students watching our all day in school rehersal. ::growls under breath:: But it wasn't so bad because I didn't have to go to class today. If only everyday were that easy. I've got a lot of news... ::sigh::

I think I'm horrible. Jen says I'm not. Clair says I'm not. Iris says I'm not. But have they ever heard some of the things I think sometimes? Nope. I think awful things, horrible things.

Weeza needs Bruno to give her a ride friday..I think I need Bruno to give me a ride saturday. Yeah. Moving on...

Weeze Iris and I are going shopping all day monday. Hopefully I find some good discounts. I need to buy Christmas presents for everyone. Making them sucks cause I've got no time. (This is due to those godforsaken rehersals.)

I hate school. I hate people. I don't ever want to be there again but I manage to drag myself up everymorning to suffer through it and then I drag myself back home to bed. I hate my life. I hate myself. I really hate everything. I don't really want to be around anyone- my friends, family. Nope, I don't want to see them. I just want to sleep for a thousand years. I'm so tired. So very tired.

Live for Today......

2002-11-17T03:54:16Z

To Jen-

Honey, my email isn't working and I see dreambook is bitching off too, so I'm just here to say (since I can't call or mail you) that you've been a great friend to me and I'm sorry I've been to busy lately and I'm here for you whenever you need me. OK? YOU do know my number and I want you to know that you can call it whenever, okies? I'm so so so so so so so sorry that this had to happen, to such nice people. Remember one thing though, hon. At least you got to see him that one last time. Many people don't even get that.

My mom had a close encounter with death today. A ladder fell off of a truck and had it not been raining (so she was going slow) and if she'd been doing the speed limit she'd have died. The ladder would've gone through her windshield.

The following, a song I wanted to tell you about. So here, Jenny-doll, this one is for you:

"live today"- Five point plan

listen to the people who've come before you
learn from their mistakes, let me implore you
'cause if we don't learn from times gone by
then we're destined to repeat them 'til the day we die

it's all about finding what we're here to do
live for your love, and to yourself be true
'cause one of these days it'll all go away
and there's only one thing you've gotta do: live today

we've got so much to give
and only a short time to live
make the world give you what you need,
a sure-fire way to get yourself freed

don't let nobody speak your mind
you've only gotta look and you'll find that
if you make the best of what you've got
you'll never ever miss what you have not, just

live today, yeah you gotta live today
you better find your way in the world today
and there's only one thing you gotta do (and that's)
live today

so many people fill your mind with falsehoods
professing themselves to be cultural Robin Hoods
giving to the rich what they take from the poor
holding out their hands while they push you out the door

it's all about finding what we're here to do
live for your love, and to yourself be true
'cause one of these days it'll all go away
and that's the one reason why you have got to

(chorus)

so just take some time
find some peace of mind
open your eyes and see
everything that you're meant to be
and don't forget to live today

Below-

2002-11-08T20:59:37Z

I wrote them. Course, I figured you all were intelligent enough to figure it out because it's in MY livejournal, but you know- just in case, there you are.

-_-

2002-11-06T21:33:05Z

Read the poems of my soul
hear the rhyms inside my heart
pour my tears into a bowl
hear the thoughts, both sweet and tart

Let me answer with thing I know
tell me thoughts, let it flow
keep me here in this place
let me hold you, touch my face

Forever here, forever mine
our love will defy time
don't leave me, don't you go
stay here with me, make it so

may I remember this forever
and hope the memory stays forever
one will go and one will stay
take my heart, keep me this way.

Your eyes never change....

2002-11-05T02:48:48Z

Sew Sew Sew Sew.... I was sick today. Chest pains, très mal. I don't know what it is but it's bad. So, since I couldn't do anything, I made skirts! Well, two- a velvet black one with silver spider webs and a pink and blue plaid one. I also fixed up a pink velour sweatshirt and made a leather-y pink belt.

So tired, don't feel well at all..... -_-

I hate this chest pain. It hurts, sometimes like Hell and sometimes just a little bit, but it still hurts. Like someone stabbing at my heart. I have no idea what it is.

Mmmmmm Pippin

2002-10-30T21:15:45Z

Who is your Ideal Lord of the Rings (male) Mate?
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Yeah, Merry and Pippin are the two hottest people in the LOR universe! Well, maybe the universe on whole. They rock. Totally totally rock. I wanted just Pippin, but I realize they won't be seperated, so I guess I'll take the extra whilst I can have an extra. ^_~

It's been a long time, old friend.

2002-10-22T19:03:41Z

Yes. Yes. I'm thinking on starting a zine, but I really have nothing to rant and rave about. Other than stuff. I've got a little comic character whose name is Jill and I think she'll be appearing in it. It's going to be called Preaching To Angels. First Issue- Offbeat Hearts. How kewl, right? GTG. See YA!

They think that love is just a growing pain....

2002-10-14T19:55:08Z

Grease is the word!

I haven't made anything in a long time... :( I really ought to. I miss wearing things that I've made. It's all cute and someone tells you they love it. ^_^ Makes me happy. I had to leave school today- sick- which proved to be a good thing because I got to go to Park City Mall for lunch. I had Long John Silvers and got chocolate..then felt sick again but it's ok. I gtg, I feel inspired. Bonjour, you all!

Hell can't hit me now!

2002-10-10T20:51:35Z

Well- has been a bit better. THe rehersal for Arsenic and Old Lace is going really well. I love my part. I'm so fucking tired. No matter what I do, no matter how early I get to sleep I cannot catch up! I'm just always tired! What is up with that? My head and neck hurt really bad. I think it's my mattress but I don't know. It hurts. Umm... I'm really a little afraid of myself right now. Not of myself, but I'm changing in so many ways (and I mean many ways) and wanting to do things with certain people that I've never wanted to do, not to mention feeling a little lonely still, and I just don't know. I don't know.

Pour Jenni.

2002-10-05T14:08:59Z

(wrong day to post this, but I'm bored)

After the homecoming dance last night, Bruno et moi hopped into his little black Mustang, with a full tank of gas, and went out for a party! We drove and drove until dawn. It seemed like such a long time, but finlly we made it to Jenni's friend's house many states over, where they'd had a sleepover. Zaire knew about the suprise of me and Bruno, so she snuck us in. We woke Jenni up, a total shock to her! It was our first time meeting but whatever! She got dressed, bid her friends goodbye and hopped back into the car with us. From her house we drove forever again (often stopping to go pee or to get food and gas, cause we had a TON of money). To New York we went and it was fun! We stayed in an expensive hotel, each of us with our own suites, and we slept for a few hours. Then, we went down on the street and did a ton of sightseeing and (to Bruno's dismay) shopping. We're staying overnight tonight in the hotel and who know what we'll do tomorrow!

Homecoming

2002-10-05T14:02:21Z

Well, last night was the homecoming football game and of course you know we won. How can you not win your own damn football game? Drama Club float won four years in a row ^_^. Tonight is the dance and I hope to look particularly scary. ^_^ See you there! (Some of you. If I could, I'd take Jenni and DOT too!)

Tears....

2002-10-01T01:56:46Z

Poor.

All my life I've always been poor.

I keep asking God what I'm for

and he tells me, "Gee I'm not sure.

Sweep that Floor Kid!"

Istarted life as an orphan, a child of the streets.

Here on skid row, he took me in gave me shelter, a bed,

Crust of bread and a job.

Treats me like dirt, calls me a slob,
Which I am.

So I live (downtown)

That's your home address.

Ya Live (downtown)

When your life's a mess.

Ya live (downtown)

Where depressions' jes'
Status Quo.

Down on Skid Row.

I think I'll get out of here, where I can run, just as fast as I can, to the middle of no where....

2002-10-01T01:40:46Z

I wasted a whole eight bucks on these damned fangs that don't even F---ing work! I bought regular denture putty and there was putty that come with them, but they don't work. Not to mention everytime I apply them they go on crooked. ::cry:: Every since I was a little girl, I've wanted fangs. I've wanted real fangs. God, I've wanted to be a vampire so badly. Every year I try to find some way of attatching fangs and trying to be a real-looking vampire for Halloween, but it never works! Geeze, can't ANYTHING go right EVER? ::cry::

I'm screaming a scream no one can hear, I'm drowning and no one can help me.....

2002-09-24T20:33:37Z

Life is one rather large pile of shit and we're all dung beetles crawling in it. I don't know, I stayed home the past two days to cool off, take some time, chill and get everything under control and I haven't done any of that. I've been drug around on errands with very little rewards for me, I've complained and been bawled out by mom for it... My days are just sucking. It's really bad when you'd rather be at school than at home. You know?? I'm not having a great day at all, I've been crying a lot, I'm being rushed to gather and help build this homecoming float in two weeks, which isn't going to happen and I know it, been bawled out by mom for wanting to do that- I've just been having this horrible and extremely shitty week. I just remember looking forward to school going, "Yay, this will be a great year! I've got this fab boyfriend, a great wardrobe, and two drama clubs, not to mention dance classes..". What happened? I thought everything was going to go great!! Needless to say that life has been sucky, school boring and a ton of pressure, and my mom and dad's problems haven't been making my life easier either. You know? It's not like it's my fault they hate each other, and hated each other before they were married! I don't understand. I know why they married, mom wanted a father for me, even though it wasn't my real father and I'm thankful for that, and dad wanted a easy pre-packaged family complete with pretty wife and child. And look where it's gotten us. I think my mother blames me sometimes, without knowing it, for her fucked up life. Like today when she was yelling at me she's like, "I do everything and you're never happy! Nothing I ever do is good enough for you!". That's not true. It's just last night she said she'd take me to look for a costume today for the float and to check on the progress of my school ring and today was the only day she could do it because my grandmother was only up for today to watch after the store while we ran out to the mission to look for the thing. Wouldn't you be disappointed if your mom did that to you? Said one thing and then did another and then made you go into school and have to tell your teacher it's two weeks before the thing and you still have nothing to wear?? Then to have to stand there crying uncontrollably whilst your mother yells more about it? I have a responsibility to the Drama Club, I need this costume. Sometimes I just don't understand why she does this to me. Why does she insist that her problems are my fault? She acts like I lead this perfect life and that I'm an "ungratful bitch" about it. Why? Why doesn't she know why I cry and why doesn't she stop her ranting long enough to tell me that it'll be ok? Is she right? Am I selfish not to want to leave my home and my friends and my life and move to a big city and finish my year and a half of high school in fear of some kid shooting me or killing me for breathing wrong?? Why? Is it really all my fault? I don't understand and I just don't know.

She didn't even seem happy when I told her I got the part.